When I finally think things are going my way I hit a road block.
Don't get me wrong I love life right now but because I have choose not to deal with some things I am forced to deal with them now. They are tearing me up inside.
Lord, I am really trusting you this time.
I can not help but feel lost and hurt.
Sometimes I wonder what your plan is. I pray you give me patience and guidance.
I can no longer go with out either.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Im done
I was in a horrible mood tonight because the guys in the back at my work were saying things that really bugged me.
They kept egging me on that I had changed and I was aggressive and so on.
It made me mad. I thought if I could get one person to agree with me that I was the same person it would make me feel better.
I decided to text a friend of mine just to say hello.
What I did not expect was to get a "confrontation" if that is what I should call it.
I was already upset but knew everything she was telling me was right.
I sat on my bed and just cried. I have not in a long time. I cried because I am tired of the way I am living. I AM living in sin, I am denying the Name of Christ. I am ultimately living for myself.
I am shamed to even admit this but I know those who love me and those who The Lord has brought into my life will stand by my side.
I begain to search the bible not for quick answers. I came across Daniel 6.
Many of us know these verses well.
Daniel was not afraid of persecution nor was he afraid to stand up for what he knew was right. Even if he was thrown in the lions den.
I want to be like Daniel.
verse 26 "For He is the living God,
And steadfast forever;
His kingdom is the one which shall not be destroyed,
And His dominion shall endure to the end.
27 He delivers and rescues,
And He works signs and wonders
In heaven and on earth,
Who has delivered Daniel from the power of the lions."
LORD DELIVER ME FROM THIS.
I give everything to you.
I am sorry for how I have lived my life.
I have brought shame to your name.
I do not need someone to agree with me or someone to make me feel good.
I do not want anyone to sugar coat anything for me.
I have changed and it is not good.
Lord mold me for your will and your will alone.
I am giving you my life.
They kept egging me on that I had changed and I was aggressive and so on.
It made me mad. I thought if I could get one person to agree with me that I was the same person it would make me feel better.
I decided to text a friend of mine just to say hello.
What I did not expect was to get a "confrontation" if that is what I should call it.
I was already upset but knew everything she was telling me was right.
I sat on my bed and just cried. I have not in a long time. I cried because I am tired of the way I am living. I AM living in sin, I am denying the Name of Christ. I am ultimately living for myself.
I am shamed to even admit this but I know those who love me and those who The Lord has brought into my life will stand by my side.
I begain to search the bible not for quick answers. I came across Daniel 6.
Many of us know these verses well.
Daniel was not afraid of persecution nor was he afraid to stand up for what he knew was right. Even if he was thrown in the lions den.
I want to be like Daniel.
verse 26 "For He is the living God,
And steadfast forever;
His kingdom is the one which shall not be destroyed,
And His dominion shall endure to the end.
27 He delivers and rescues,
And He works signs and wonders
In heaven and on earth,
Who has delivered Daniel from the power of the lions."
LORD DELIVER ME FROM THIS.
I give everything to you.
I am sorry for how I have lived my life.
I have brought shame to your name.
I do not need someone to agree with me or someone to make me feel good.
I do not want anyone to sugar coat anything for me.
I have changed and it is not good.
Lord mold me for your will and your will alone.
I am giving you my life.
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